Finally - Day Five

Today is Saturday and that means The Week has come to an end.  Did I accomplish everything on my list of goals for the week?  Uh, no.  Sadly, #9 (wash and detail my car) and #10 (hose off the back patio) will have to wait for another day.  But here are a few highlights of what did happen:

Five days of intense workouts
Five days of no processed sugar
Five days of keeping meticulous track of calorie intake
Five days of eating whole foods
Five days of almost constant conversation with God
And finally, on the last day - the revelation of what it truly was all about. 

I was standing at the kitchen sink yesterday afternoon, dealing with the pile of guilt - er, I mean...dishes - that had been stacking up over the past two days.  It was then that God chose to reveal what I hadn't yet been able to reason out.  The Week wasn't about perfection, or endurance, or any of the things that I had worried weren't happening.

The Week was about proving to myself that I could do it.

See, God knew I could do it (course correct my life) all along.  My husband knew I could do it, and was cheering me on at every step.  But somewhere in the back of my mind, I didn't believe it.  Too many past attempts and failures, I guess?  Things and events that the enemy of our faith uses to knock us down, time after time.  No more.

For the first time...in a long time:  I believe in me.